Dear 2015, thank you!

Dear 2015, 

You pained me pretty bad but honestly still, thank you 2015. 

You did not leave me unscathed but I swear, you made me stronger. 

You taught me that being brave and taking risks are sometimes not worth it. But believe, I do not regret them. They are now lessons I had to learn the hard way. 

You also taught me that there are fights I have to surrender and feelings I have to set aside. That there just comes a time that letting go is the only option. I've tried long enough, hard enough so please do not blame me.

Most importantly, you made me realize--not once but twice!--that above anyone else, it should be me. That my heart is fragile. That happiness is key. And that I matter. 

And so for all the bad and the good, I am still grateful for you 2015. 

As you end tonight, I will leave you with a smile. 

Yours truly, 

EUDEN VALDEZ

PHOTO BY RUSSELL PALMA

25 at 2015

OMG, quarter life crisis. 

Kidding! 

But seriously, it's ringing 2015 in a few hours, and I'm turning 25 in a few days. And I couldn't feel more excited, and afraid at the same time. 

Ask why? Because although 2014 have brought me new experiences--I've went to new places, and met new faces--the year passed rather insignificantly in general. But I am not complaining. I'm even very thankful for everything that has happened in my personal life, family and relationship, and of course my journalism career. 

This is, in a way, an acceptance. That even if 2014 became so-so, 2015 I promise will pave way for greater things. This is the year, and the age, that I will get closer to my other, and definitely bigger dream. 

That's why I am excited and afraid altogether. I pray to God, who has always been so kind and giving, to guide and help me. May things fall into their respective places. 

To 2014, I am saying goodbye to you with no regrets. 

And to 2015, I am ready for you so you better be good!